I'm so glad you're part of my life.

(Written on 16/4/11  - not sure why i never posted it. It is even more true today. I will always treasure our friendship as one of the most important things I have in this lifetime. I love you, my friend, my sister.)

Christina Emily Cave.

We've had our ups and downs for sure but this girl, other than my actual family, has stayed in my life for the longest, even knowing me at my very worst. No matter where we've been studying, lived or whatever else could get in the way, we are still here together. And I love her very much. she is like a sister to me.
I know I could trust her with anything. And last night I did.

Last night I rang her at about mid-night in a state and she was there just to listen and console me as I sobbed and talked incoherently to her. So not only did she talk me round to hear sense but she also offered to meet and just chat with me today. To be honest, she is my rock. I don't know where my life would be without her in it. Christina was there for me in the darkest part of my life, just after I had been abused and didn't want to be alive anymore. Her just being in my life, shining in happiness like a candle in a darkened room, gave me hope that I could get through it. I don't think she realizes how vital to me wanting to carry on living she was...

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Soooo, it sure has been a while. Whoops! I have written three draft posts but none of them have been finished -sorry.

Lots has happened since then; but the main thing is that I got a job in December 2011 at a nursery near Gatwick airport. I started in the baby unit which is aged 3 - 14 months. I then worked in Owls Nest which is our 3 - 4 year olds, then did two days a week in Foxes which is the 2 - 3 year olds and the other three days I worked in Rabbit Run with the 14 month to 2 year olds. As of October last year I went to full time in Rabbits which I am totally loving. As I'm sure is true with most jobs I work with people who I wouldn't "choose to associate with" which means some of the people I don't particularly like but there are others, especially one in particular, who I am so glad I have met. Me an Helen have become such good friends and she even told me I am her best friend in this area (she moved from Sutton a few years ago). It was so nice hearing that and it's true for me about Helen at work as well. She is so lovely and funny and kind, I'm glad to be able to call her a friend. 

So yeah, that's the biggest change in my life since my last post. I have a job that I mostly love.

Something else that is new is I have discovered I have a love of sewing. Stacey introduced me to it really, making bunting for InStep, our church's womens ministry. I helped her out a bit and it turned out I thoroughly enjoyed it so I've got the sewing machine Ruth had and I am (very, VERY, slowly) making some bunting of my own. In the future I plan on learning to alter my clothes for when I have lost the weight I need to and maybe even learning to make my own as well.

I know that's only two things that have happened but if I don't post this now I'm not if I ever will or if this will end up joining the other three or so posts that will never get finished now...

I shall try to update this more often but no promises. I am not certain anyone actually reads this anyway - but I'll keep posting as if people do because it's nice to have a space where I can be honest and open and get the ramblings, opinions, ideas and thoughts that are scattered in my brain.
Therefore, if someone is reading this, Hello! And if no one is, then; meh, really. :)